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Today. Just. Sucked.
Mar. 2nd, 2011 08:42 pmDidn't have too good a day today. After two abortive attempts of taking Lady to the vet (since the very next day, both times, she appeared to act and feel better to day of) Mom said she wouldn't tell me until after it was done.
Mom could see Lady was down for good (I was still a little foolishly optimistic) and took her down to the vet today and had her put to sleep. I didn't even known she had done it until after I woke up. In a way I'm grateful I didn't want to see that. See her succumb to a fate that I saved her from 16 years ago when me and dad saved her from the animal shelter (she was due to be out to sleep the next day if no one had adopted her by then). I cried myself raw and ragged the second time Mom suggested she be out to sleep, so much so that I couldn't blink for incredibly swollen eyes I had from crying the night before.
But this time I've barely cried at all but I have, and several times but not as hard as before. I miss my LaiLai but I'm also glad she isn't suffering anymore.
Mom could see Lady was down for good (I was still a little foolishly optimistic) and took her down to the vet today and had her put to sleep. I didn't even known she had done it until after I woke up. In a way I'm grateful I didn't want to see that. See her succumb to a fate that I saved her from 16 years ago when me and dad saved her from the animal shelter (she was due to be out to sleep the next day if no one had adopted her by then). I cried myself raw and ragged the second time Mom suggested she be out to sleep, so much so that I couldn't blink for incredibly swollen eyes I had from crying the night before.
But this time I've barely cried at all but I have, and several times but not as hard as before. I miss my LaiLai but I'm also glad she isn't suffering anymore.
